As I recalled, I had nightmares on thursday. First I dreamt that I was at Paris and trying to arrest this crazy woman fugitive and she was so strong. Okay damn weird, but in the end became she let me off. And suddenly I was flying, flying so high so fast across lands and seas, I could even accelerate according to how I want it, scary, cos I keep thinking i will drop down any second. And these all happened in the span of half hour. I woke up sleep again and had a long agonising dream about failing my tests terribly. Argh.

I don't know why but I feel so weak this week. Not in the sense that nothing seems to go well but the way I respond to people. I think I was quite rude to some teachers. Well, perhaps I am gullible enough to let my emotions affect me. I just don't understand why certain things are what they are now. I feel so disappointed at some people, a sense of regret. It feels to me that I am trying to grab water, a futile attempt to bring back things, maybe I should just give up.

Emo should be the next big thing.