Almost Paradise.

Yesterday I did this test about how emo I am. And well the result was that I was only 23% emo. So surprising, I kind of feel I am a very emo person, seeing that I like to daydream and all that. Recently, I have also taken to standing by the window and observe people. Sounds creepy eh. You can't blame me. The weather is so gloomy nowadays, no clouds. To make things worse, my brother is in China and there is no one to talk to me. Oh yeah of course I can always do my work. And I am proud to say that I have started on my maths. You know studying can actually numb your senses. And well I found some pretty cool games on facebook too.

You know sometimes I just don't understand why human beings need friends. Like whats your definition of being a friend. Probably someone who makes your life complete, see nowadays there are all sorts of tests online asking things like what do you look for in a friend,what kind of a friend are you. Maybe I expect too much. But deep down, all I really want in my friends is that they care for me and could at least sense when there is something wrong with me. Perhaps the number of friends you have in this lifetime is predestined. I for one feel that having too many friends can cause trouble. You will spend more time with some,neglect some. I have neglected my old friends alot alot, I must admit. And most of the time those people whom you spend more time with don't really cherish you, they do not rate you as important as they are to you. How ironic, it probably takes someone quite some time to realise this, but its the truth. These few days, I finally realise who are my true friends. He/ they actually thought about what I felt. Just when I was distancing them, heaven choose to play a big joke on me, kind of like a big slap to me. So yeah I should probably laugh right, haha.

If you would have noticed by now, I seldom blogged in paragraphs.When I did, that means there is something wrong with me. But come to think of it, I guess I have lost right a long time ago.