Almost Paradise.

All things should come to an end. Back to square one after everything, I should feel grateful its just that. Reflecting upon myself, its a wonder why I have never thought that I would be brought upon such misery when I have had months of smooth sailing, happiness and even security. Maybe I think too much, but then I have always trusted on my sixth sense and gut instinct, countless times they had pulled me through difficult times. Its time to get a grip on myself and bring back the old me. I lost myself, my smiles and who I really am. But who could blame me, I am just your ordinary girl after all, with flesh and blood. No one can actually blame me for harboring scary and unemotional thoughts that can be downright nasty. I am just building walls around myself to prevent a repeat of the same thing because the truth is it hurts alot alot. Even now, the pain is eating me alive but not as much already. I am cold inside. But I would be happy. If not for myself but also for those who truly cared.